Understanding Negative Emotions.

Growing up I had a difficult time understanding the way I felt in certain situations.

I did not know how to process what was going on within. Especially when negative feelings were arising, I was hurting yet acting as if did not bother me, disregarding the pain I was feeling inside.

I was trying to full myself and pretend, they did not exist despite their strong presence.

My confusion and misunderstanding of the internal process left me fearing my own emotions and unconsciously adding to the pain. Fostering negativity for so long exploded into intolerable pain silently pushing me to find a new approach.

Approach which would allow me to comprehend my feelings in depth and find the way to ease them.

Meditation was the entry door to the unknown territory of going within and exploring my inner consciousness. It helped me practice stillness and taught me how to allow thoughts and feelings to flow without interruption or attachment. Learning how to detach was one of the most important lessons I had to become familiar with, it was the first step to understand emotions.

After few unsuccessful attempts and almost giving up (which I am glad I did not do) I was able to sit silently without any fear and witnessed my own energy while in motion. It was an experience which I could never forget. While it traveled, I felt its movement by leaving trace of tingling sensations in different areas of my body, it had also manifested as explosions of tiny sparkles of light that made my observation easy to follow.

It was an extraordinary experience confirming there was nothing to fear, and I was on the right path.

Being able to practice stillness for quite some time allowed me to understand that negative emotion is trapped energy not being able to flow freely that turned into a dark cloud that touched and affected my thought patterns, feelings, and behaviors in distortive ways.

My inability and misapprehension of being afraid of my own energy field was the reason that led to my negative buildup.

We always fear what we do not understand, but once the knowledge arises there is no going back. Understanding the process helped eliminate the fear and opened door for transformation and expansion. ''Feeling it is healing it'', as a lot of spiritual people say.

I stay by it, for I see how my own life transformed in a way I could never imagined.

I hope this can reach someone else’s heart and help with their own inner journey!

Love and Light to All !!!